Letter from Alexander, Abdon

Soldier: Alexander, Abdon
Allegiance: Confederate
Unit/Service Branch: 1st Artillery
Home State: North Carolina
Date Written: Wednesday, October 15th, 1862
Location: Drewry's Bluff, Va
Correspondence Type: Letter
Subjects: Camp Life, Eastern Theater, Family, Politics
We are likely to remain here for the winter. The country is nearly exhausted and provisions are high, yet we do very well in consideration of the number of troops and the time we have been in this state. I don't see that the war is near a close though what is impossible to us is yet easy to the Lord. If it was not for my faith or reliance, I should dispond of any good. We must go forward in the discharge of our duty. My heart is sad when I think of the suffering, the privation of the poor this cold winter, yet we must hope that all these things are for our good. My views of the depravity of human nature is not lessened but I see great room for laborers in the field, and the increasing of the prayers of all Christians. I am sure if all I hear is correct, we have got all the wicked and corrupt in the army. The feelings of one in the army can scarcely be described when we hear the prices the speculators ask for food for the woman and children, and how unconcerned they appear to be about the fate of our country. It makes one feel sometimes as if we ought to give them a punishment as traitors, but then we know that we must not fret on account of evil doers. There is an undefined fear among us that the enemy will gain great advantage over us this winter by the aid of their gun boats and pillage and devastate our land. If this struggle goes on it must become more desperate the longer it lasts. The murder of citizens in cold blood in Missouri will greatly exasperate our men and only tend to bring it to extermination. The people of England sit with folded hands and see the utter folly of an attempt to subjugate a people of their own blood, and yet have not raised a hand to stop this bloodshed. The Lord works by various instrumentation and maybe they are reserved to stop our enemies. I hope the Christians have not ceased their efforts nor prayers for on them depends the saving of our people. As to how demoralizing the associations in the army are, it is worse than you imagine, and how lawless we will be when we return home, and how long before we become a sober, quiet people is more than I can tell. But it is better than infidelity with the garb of the Red Republicanism which our enemies are fighting under. Lord deliver us from the scenes of a French Revolution, yet we have but to fail and it becomes in all its horrors. Martha was well when I received the last letter. Father is doing well though troubled about the war. As to the movements of our army I don't know but suppose the fighting will be at Charleston. I have not been to Richmond yet but will get you a paper. Write to me, Petersburg, Care Capt. Jos. Graham, Co. C, 10 Regt. N.C.T.

Yours in love, Abdon.